honesty and openness invites pain and brokenness.
it's the wretched truth of our lives. we are empty with only ourselves.
if a person doesn't face this truth, he lives in a state of dishonesty with the world and himself. everyone must face this loneliness at some point. some people face it every day, some people ignore it always.
i might be one of those who faces it more often, though i often do hide myself in comforts, normalities, agendas, interests, etc. when i escape the lies, or walls that i build, i face the inevitable truth...i am lost and often completely alone. and then to think that every individual is in the same boat...alone...together and alone, a profound pain falls upon me and i think of Christ. Christ had to feel this pain of being a human, completely separated from real life, from breathing without having to inhale, he had to feel this pain intensely, but he also chose to feel it for everyone else and suffer our pains with us.
i believe that the path to take is to face this truth, this pain. to feel it, and then to find others who feel it, and share the pain with them. this pain can sometimes feel overbearing, and that is when you find cases of suicide or other empty actions of desolation.
this isn't something to look down upon. i've often heard individuals describe depressed, suicidal people as selfish. i would argue that they are less selfish than one who would say such a thing about this group of people. when a person is lost in thoughts of suicide and helplessness, they are only being forced in their minds to face this reality of humanity that we all should face more often.
i strongly feel that the best way to deal with this problem is to face the pain and find others to confide in. the most important thing in your existence is your relationships with important people and your relationship with Christ. we need to attach to one another in a real, honest and uninhibited way. you don't have to believe in a spiritual savior of your heart and soul to feel and experience the freedom that it can bring. you just can't be closed to the option, and you need to search for what heals you most naturally. i would not say that Jesus is truth, but instead, i would tell you to make a point to honestly seek for the truth. Jesus promised that if you seek then you shall find. anyone who has a belief but tells you not to seek openly and honestly toward your belief doesn't really have a faith in his belief, or at least he doesn't think things through.
i'm very serious about this and would be completely comforted by anyone's desire to discuss it. i'm always very hesitant to discuss suicide, because i know that it's a very real and dangerous thing. through experience, i've learned that you have to treat it with great sensitivity and understanding.
you who experience these thoughts of death and helplessness have no seemingly easy way out. you don't feel able to tell anyone about this...you don't feel like anyone will understand or approve of your brokenness. you feel like no one will be able to relate. i will be bold to say that you know someone very close who has felt similarly. go to someone that you trust deeply; family, lifelong friends, encouraging leaders, etc. tell them your feelings and fears. you are not alone, we are all here with the same emptiness. reach out. there is beauty worth reaching out for, and it is in the deep connections that people can make with each other.
currently listening to "Pretend You're Alive" by Lovedrug. http://www.lovedrugmusic.com/
if a person doesn't face this truth, he lives in a state of dishonesty with the world and himself. everyone must face this loneliness at some point. some people face it every day, some people ignore it always.
i might be one of those who faces it more often, though i often do hide myself in comforts, normalities, agendas, interests, etc. when i escape the lies, or walls that i build, i face the inevitable truth...i am lost and often completely alone. and then to think that every individual is in the same boat...alone...together and alone, a profound pain falls upon me and i think of Christ. Christ had to feel this pain of being a human, completely separated from real life, from breathing without having to inhale, he had to feel this pain intensely, but he also chose to feel it for everyone else and suffer our pains with us.
i believe that the path to take is to face this truth, this pain. to feel it, and then to find others who feel it, and share the pain with them. this pain can sometimes feel overbearing, and that is when you find cases of suicide or other empty actions of desolation.
this isn't something to look down upon. i've often heard individuals describe depressed, suicidal people as selfish. i would argue that they are less selfish than one who would say such a thing about this group of people. when a person is lost in thoughts of suicide and helplessness, they are only being forced in their minds to face this reality of humanity that we all should face more often.
i strongly feel that the best way to deal with this problem is to face the pain and find others to confide in. the most important thing in your existence is your relationships with important people and your relationship with Christ. we need to attach to one another in a real, honest and uninhibited way. you don't have to believe in a spiritual savior of your heart and soul to feel and experience the freedom that it can bring. you just can't be closed to the option, and you need to search for what heals you most naturally. i would not say that Jesus is truth, but instead, i would tell you to make a point to honestly seek for the truth. Jesus promised that if you seek then you shall find. anyone who has a belief but tells you not to seek openly and honestly toward your belief doesn't really have a faith in his belief, or at least he doesn't think things through.
i'm very serious about this and would be completely comforted by anyone's desire to discuss it. i'm always very hesitant to discuss suicide, because i know that it's a very real and dangerous thing. through experience, i've learned that you have to treat it with great sensitivity and understanding.
you who experience these thoughts of death and helplessness have no seemingly easy way out. you don't feel able to tell anyone about this...you don't feel like anyone will understand or approve of your brokenness. you feel like no one will be able to relate. i will be bold to say that you know someone very close who has felt similarly. go to someone that you trust deeply; family, lifelong friends, encouraging leaders, etc. tell them your feelings and fears. you are not alone, we are all here with the same emptiness. reach out. there is beauty worth reaching out for, and it is in the deep connections that people can make with each other.
currently listening to "Pretend You're Alive" by Lovedrug. http://www.lovedrugmusic.com/
posted by andrew at 13:24
2 Comments:
Thanks for sharing your thoughts.. you never know how much they will mean to someone in need of them.......
I like the way you use your words. It encompasses what almost everyone has thought, or is thinking, or will be thinking soon. You should take psychology, for sure.
I love you.
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