i'm too much of an optimist...i'm not going to last. oh wait...i can't say that, i'm an optimist.

i can't imagine it's a bad thing that i believe in good things. i believe they can always happen.
i believe the bad things in life can be reconstructed to become beautiful.

there is still a sense of ugliness, or pain, inside of this freshly, recreated beautiful object.

for example, i have a tattoo on my foot, it says "grace". i am consequently "scarred by grace". tattoos are essentially scars with ink. that's why they are dark on your skin. tattoos hurt a bit. the act of getting a painful tattoo of a beautiful word had purpose. i usually feel this way when i think of the concept of grace. it's painful to be forgiven of the things i've done or the things i hate about myself. but through that pain is a beautiful outcome. to accept grace is to loose your pride, to accept fault. this is usually a painful release, but such a beautiful one.

hope can be smashed (and it usually is). but hope is sometimes the only thing that will get you through the hardest moment's of your life. don't give up on hope. because if you do, then you are, in effect, giving up on everything. and some things are worth holding on to.

so when i tell you that there is always hope, things can always be better. don't give up. i'm not trying to tell you that you don't suffer pain, because you do. and i'm not trying to tell you that you won't suffer pain again, because you will. but i'm trying to tell you that you can overcome that because of something beautiful. grace.

i just want people to be healthy and always consider what it is that could cure. what is it...what is it that could possibly cure. search for it. you must.



currently listening to "Premiers Symptômes" by Air.