1.25.2007

the lessons i've learned as a driver.

today i was driving home from school...

well, anyway...i've been driving for 6 years.

once, a few months ago, I had a conversation with my friend from school, Zac M. this conversation was about what kind of driver i am. radiohead tells me to be a "patient, better driver." i think i'm a good and patient driver. but other drivers tend to hate me when i'm driving. i don't get mad when i'm driving, in fact, i don't really get mad ever, or at least i don't express it outwardly. zac and i were talking about how i never get mad at other drivers, even when they do frustrating things, but that i make other drivers frustrated all the time.

i'm an agressive driver. i get it from my father. i like being very time-efficient. i change lanes a lot, i speed up, i slow down. i usually obey the laws, never going more than 10.mph over the speed limit. i always use my blinker. i always check my blindspots. i've been in one accident and it wasn't really my fault. i've never had a ticket (though i've been pulled over countless times.) i'm a good, safe, cautious, experienced driver.

but today, as i was driving home from school...(here we are at the beginning.) I was on commercial St. (in Salem). i made a quick lane change, and a really quick acceleration to 45mph, in a 40mph zone. and at the light after that, an old man in a car pulled up next to me. I saw him glance over at me, so i turned to him in time to read his lips speak two words, "fucking idiot." I'm a fucking idiot. though i'm sure, if i asked him, he probably wouldn't be able to tell me that he hadn't caused an accident, or that he had never received a ticket. i did nothing to him. and i wasn't even mad that he said that about me. in fact, i was waiting for him to look back over at me so that i could wave to him, dying to see how he would react to that. (do not repay evil with evil, but rather, repay evil with good. it will be like pouring hot coals upon their heads.) it's from the bible.

anyway, i love driving. and i won't get mad at you, even if you cut me off, i'll just laugh. cause i'm laid back. but watch out for me, because you're probably going to hate me, though i never meant to do you any harm.

-andrew t.



currently listening to nothing.

1.24.2007

a song i wrote a long time ago.

"the great equalizer"

you are the daylight
in this dark town.
you are the rainfall
in this drought of ours.

you are the lifetime
of hope...in this old man's dying heart.

you are the river
in this desert, so dry.
you are the freedom
in this cell of mine.

you are the warm fire
that burns...in our cold hearts that don't feel anymore.

you are my sleep
in this tiring life.
you are the sweet music
in these guns of war.

you are forever
and i'm just a moment that's here and gone, lost in time.



---it's about how God is the answer to every problem. he's the great healer. he can replace every painful hole and void. but he can only do it if you believe it. and so you should believe. don't believe in church, or other believers, they'll ruin it for you. but believe in God. God is good.



currently listening to "misery is a butterfly" by Blonde Redhead. http://www.blonde-redhead.com